I’m practical, pessimistic, logical, and a realist, sorry if that gets in the way of your fucking happiness fun and optimism.

People can blow me, I’m done with all of them.

I hate you so much right now for doing this to me.

Why can’t life be good to me for once?

Just fuck it, fuck it all.

Fuck everything and everyone.

I’m tired of always being the only one with feelings. Lucky me I like the fucking girl who’s going to friend zone me every time and just acts like it’s no fucking deal. Then I’m asked for dating advice? Give me a fucking break. My dating advice to you is to date me and not that gross faggot you’re humping you dumb
Skank! God women fucking suck. And relationships and love and all that stupid shit. It’s over rated and pointless.

But I’m fed up with being trash for people to kick around. I’m tired of being used uncared for and taken for granted. If its coming to this I’ll just disappear into the woods and no one will ever find me. To be neither forgotten nor remembered, I’ll just vanish from time.

I just, I don’t know. I don’t know what to think anymore. I’ve had too much sadness for it to be easy for me to be happy. And I can feel it every day, inside me. People aren’t who I thought they were, and I don’t know who I’m comfortable with. I’m scared I’m just gonna end up alone, hanging out in my apartment day after day. But that’s kinda how it is anyway since I’m so far from the circle.

But more than anything I’m hurt. I’m really fucking hurt and I’m not healing any time soon. I can have a good day and smile and laugh all I want. But as soon as I’m alone, as soon as I’m not busy, as soon as I see two people who care about each other I can’t handle it. Call me what you will think of it what you will, I really don’t fucking care anymore. I have trouble moving on and that’s that.